I lost 2 friends. Year 1999. Year 2003.
One was beaten up. One car accident.
Both of them left when i was there.
Their familes were all teary and standing by the bedside.
The first couldn't take my blood. The second as well.
I just sat outside and stared blankly. Cos i couldn't bear to watch.
wat is wrong with the doctors? One moment i was happily chatting and discussing their "recovery celebration", the next moment they went critical. why?? did i say something wrong?
Twice.
with my own 2 eyes i saw IT. the shadow that claims, or so they say. Yt just went straight to the bed and took them away. Dunno y i wasn't scared. i was just sad. Greg...why? HG.....why? Greg you promised me you would help me finish my model. HG didn't u say u wan to treat me lunch?...no answer. they just turned back and smile. Twice. It's just too much for me. It's my fault that I couldn't do anything. I couldn't bring myself to tell their loved ones nor could I stop the shadow. Now i will never get the answers i want.
Today, another good friend is in pain. To whom is bedridden in the hospital right now, my heart goes out to you. Even if you think I'm a nuisance, I'll do whatever it takes to make things different this time. Even if it is to give up something close to my heart, I'll do it. Please be well. Please do not let me go thru the agony again. Things had happened twice too often. It's not worth it at all. I will not let history repeat itself.
I will see u again later. Hope everything's alright.
